it's difficult to inhale.
gasping for air is foreign now.
you feel the tears coming.
so you let out a breath
but take it back really quick.
and try to keep the tears.
you feel your throat closing.
you know what this is. it's happened before.
but it has been more frequent than ever.
usually it's easier to let the feeling go.
because before you never thought about it.
your hands are trembling. but you still shake it out.
your legs are fidgeting. you can't press on it
because your hands are trembling.
what's happening? what is happening?
your heart beats quicker and
that is all you are able to hear.
you tried inhaling again.
the throat is closed now.
you feel yourself choking.
but you're not really choking. it's just a sensation.
you start to wonder if this is real.
your hands are covering your throat now.
because you wanna know if this is real.
you inhale.
but it's
too
difficult to
gasp
for air.
