This town is very pointless.
To begin with, I always hear drama everywhere I go. I turn to the left, people talk about drama at their college. *I turn to the right, people talk drama about the country. The point is, I am just so bored and sick of it. I mean, is there nothing better to talk about?
If you don't know me well, here's a tip. I tend to avoid drama which leads me to avoiding people who I know could make me end up feeling horrible about myself. If the other party feels like I'm "creating drama", then be it. I honestly don't give a shit if you are butthurt by what I have to say, because I only say the truth. It's just me being self-driven and doing things for myself.
If you want to put a label on it and call me selfish, then yes. I am. I am "selfish" for talking about what I want in life. I am "selfish" for talking about my dreams and my goals. I am "selfish" for avoiding pointless drama.
Whenever I feel like someone is putting negativity in my life, I avoid them. If you ask any of my friends, I'm pretty sure they'll tell you that I have no stories to tell whatsoever. Nothing that has to do with college life except for my studies and probably lecturer complaints, but that's a typical college student thing, isn't it?
Even if I do talk about my studies, there's literally no point because there's no support. Eg; I do something good for myself and is very proud of my achievements, but in turn, I just get ignored and they end up talking about drama, again. Like I said, it's pointless. There's no point sharing your achievements. There's. No. Point.
I might say that I have no college drama which I admit is very boring, but these things won't apply to my success. I don't waste time talking about other people.
But, if you ask them if they have any drama...
Everyone talk about things that do not even matter. Don't get me wrong, you can totally open up to me about anything. You can totally come to me and ask for advice, and I will listen, even though I don't know what's right or wrong, but I'll know what's best. But, to keep the ball rolling and constantly talk to me about relationships especially if it's someone else's and not yours? Keep that for an other time, please. Or don't ever tell me about it because at the end of the day, I don't give a shit. And guess what? No one else gives a shit, either.
People don't listen to me when I talk about positivity in my life, then why should I listen when people talk about drama which only brings negativity in their lives? Am I right?
What's worse is when people do not take my advices seriously. I'll tell them one thing, they'll say they'll do it but bada-bing, bada-boom... The situation happens again and they ask for the same advice. (This is a fuck you to those who do this. Honestly...)
I don't like creating trouble especially with the people I have known for a long time. If I ever have drama in my life, I'll wait for people to ask. If they don't, then what's the point? Like I said. No one else gives a shit, either.
Here's another tip:-
Whenever I'm quiet or on my phone when there's a conversation going, there are things going on my mind. When I'm quite, it's when I observe the most. I observe the conversations people have which - brings us back to square one, are fucking pointless.
So, if I'm quiet... I am not angry. I am not upset. I am not tired. I am just bored of the surroundings. I am just waiting for something good to happen.
"Why don't you try and start another conversation?"
About what, exactly? I want to ask people about their ambition, their goals, their dreams. I want to tell people to do what they want and be happy and proud of themselves because all of my life no one has ever done that for me. I want to tell people to stay positive and keep doing what they love because all of my life, no one has ever told me to.
But, people are so caught up with things that don't matter.
For once, I just want to find a friend who cares about other people. They don't even have to care about me at all. They can tell me facts that is world-widely known about whales or the mountains and it's a far more interesting conversation I'll have than about who is with who or who broke up with who.
I think that this town needs more people who will help people and talk about the good. There may be those kind of people here, but I'll keep that vision in my head until I actually find a person who will do better for other people. A person can just not shower for days and I would still be their friend.
Betul ke ni? Kawan dengan orang yang kotor. Tak mandi.
If they talk about interesting stories that has a positive outcome, I would honestly be their friend. I'm not a judge-mental asshole like some people are here.
Those are the kind of people I want to get to know. Maybe then, this town would have a point.
